Is it a good idea for me to drop physics? I think it's a good idea NOW but will I think of it the same way say, after I have stopped being so mad and lazy. Yes, I am so so so mad (not angry-mad but insanecrazy-mad). But seriously, I don't see myself doing anything physic-ish anytime soon. What's making me talk like this? R papers that's what. Freaking extra stupid Rs. People are like "Oh are you taking SATs?" Take that and fail Rs? I know it's my own fault for playing almost half of my hols away and having the kinda attitude which is "look at books SIAN diao"!


Dip is stressing me out. So's the potential teaching job. I don't know why I ever thought securing a dip was gonna be easy, I mean considering my standard and passion. After taking so long to 'master' pathetique, I decided not to play it since after a somewhat hiatus, I forgot everything about it. I'm not really confident about teaching. I don't want to hope too much.


Yesterday was a pretty LONG day. I think I'm starting to get insomnia cos I can't get to sleep and when I do, I only manage 3 hours. Anyway, met Yan and Ting at 1130 to hitch a ride to j8 for the xiao yuan superstar thing. Ying and De couldn't make it and I heard De sent some sms or something which was completely formal (being from a cousin)- - - "Lastly, I would like to apologise for not being able to make it due to personal reasons..." or something. We are proud of you eling! ! ! You made it this far (3o+ from 3000+) and were brave enough to sing in front of so so so many people! So yup, we are proud of you and don't think you disappointed us. Cheer up! (:
It was so crowded and we stood for like, 3 hours! After that, it was total numbness and we couldn't even find a seat anywhere. Terrible! Ended up eating icecream in Haagen Daz so that we could sit down. Eling treated us to icecream! Haha. Mango Sorbet was damn nice! The icecream was damn nice overall! :) We brought banners too. Not really longbanner-banners but that kind of board-banners. Then when eling came on (she was last goodness!), we just screamed and screamed and screamed. Should be quite loud cos' people stared. Wonder if we got caught on camera *horrors!* Then the guys behind me and Cheryl sneakily pushed our boards apart then when we stared at them, they were like "UH Cannot see! Sorry ah!" And they were damn tall la, I think from NYJC. After we started waving the boards, they were again complaining "eh, maybe we should help them hold!" coupled with "typicalguy" laughter. Pretend to be meng maybe. Anyway eling saw this guy and was like *exchange-glance*with weiren then me saying "Damn funny." Means cute. Hahaha. Her cousins are nice too. 3 of them, just like there's 3 of us. Haha. After the results thing, 4 of us went to Pasta for dinner. Kept bitching about the girls who got in. Out of 10, perhaps dislike 4 or 5 of them. Haha. Made some mean typical-anesea remarks then alot of evil laughs. Ting, while queueing, whispered to me about 2 guys in u in front of us, "Never get in de muahaha!" I won't post the comments lest we start getting hate mail or something. The guys' results, didn't really pay attention since abit the *yi fen tian ying* already. But I suppose most of them not bad visually. I don't think I'll watch it when it's out. Urghh! Ill-feeling.


Busking on sat, sun and next thu. I'm SO gonna die from humiliation. Sat at orchard where so many shu ren can walk past then point "OMG I know her." Grrrr so horrid la! Then wearing weird stuff. *tears* Fashion suicide! ! ! I don't like parading around like a clown. NOOOO! What's the big idea la. Even u looks better than that. Thank God. No party hats.