Hi I'm 17 going on 18 but I think I'm acting 17 going on 7. I'm so childish am I not? Not that being childish is bad but it does drive people nuts at times due to incessant whining and cheap thrills.
Like I've mentioned before, it doesn't matter whether we appear or not. When we do, oh yay what a miracle! When we don't, so be it. It's not as if we're of much help or entertainment when we're present. Rather it's the direct opposite which is closer to the truth. I'm sure they hate us very much now but frankly I don't really care. If you hate me, I also hate you. I mean, *rolls eyes* L E O N S *dismissive wave of hand*, who fucking cares! Perhaps not everyone says ALOT with their eyes but I am one of those who do (Ok fine, look a bit crazed at times but so what!) SO if you're trying to xiang wo men da yan se, you were a tad too obvious so now we hate you.
I don't like games. I'm SO not a games kinda person. Sometimes the word 'games' can really freak me out big time so much so that I will hyperventilate. When I don't like to do something, I usually just get the hell outta it. Life's like a game, you gotta twist the rules at times.
I like today's after history lecture break! So many people to see, it's as if everyone we usually 'admire' or 'criticise' is there!
Stickarmleon thought min interested so now shy face all the time. I can't stand him, so gay walking around and always smiling. I'm sure he's not smiling, it's just that the mouth was built this way. Cheerful 24/7.
Bicycleguy catwalked twice. Can someone please tell him that once a leon, always a leon despite use of contacts. He really thinks he's got high voltage eyes! *rolls eyes*
Then a few hu nao thought can attract attention.
SE kept parading around and standing closeby, thought we can't see. What's more! Pretended looking out for friends then kept sneakyeyes over. Looked away and acted innocent when we turned to look. Min was like,"SE is trying very hard not to smile! Look at his face, so sneaky!"
I think my long-lost pal recognises me according to min. She says he is looking over then when I look, he is not looking. So it's like sneakily look, people look then he immediately look away. Annoying!
He was there too! Refused to look or say hi even though dying to. Why? Cuz that one was there. Can I ask 'hey is there any misunderstanding between us' and clear up the thing once and for al. No point hatredfilled eyes all the time.
R is quite a weird person actually. When he's with friends, hu nao alot! When he sees us, then pretend very guai and gentlemanly. Fake! Is there a need to shy smile all the time? Awkward leh.
My classmate is quite mean actually. I don't know whether to scold him or laugh. He probably means no harm la since he's always like that. There are times when I don't even know whether we are actually friends even though there was that one time when both complained to each other and felt pathetic together.
Irvin's joining Singapore Idol. Today during math someone announced and he turned red!
Things are definitely looking up from last year. Last year I was pretty much suicidal throughout most of the year, this year, well a bit sian that's for sure but not so depressed and upset 24/7. Good thing cuz frowning gives you lines! I don't like frowning because I am a very smiley person most of the time. Even when I'm scared and all, I can still smile and laugh at myself. There are only a few times when I'm so majorly upset that I can't even crack a smile despite everyone around me laughing. Recently, something like that happened and I was like super depressed and all but one word from him and I'm like, over it.
I don't know how people's minds work at times. They think so highly of themselves and perceive everyone as being (what?) fascinated by them. I don't like bu zhen jing people who hu nao all the time to annoy/antagnoise you then act zhen jing and stiff when you're trying to be friendly. Hmpfh. What logic is there? Next time I should just say something instead of minding their feelings. Do they have feelings?
I don't like the feeling of being alone. It makes me feel very insecure and vulnerable. I know I had a post on this a long long time ago haha. I'm not one of those people who can just catwalk a thousand times around without feeling anything. I will be pretty scared. haha. Especially those who walk around then arms dangling, stupid looking bags/mini kiddy bags, smiling around, glazed eyes or trying to dian with their 'high voltage' eyes. Buay ta han! Can't stand them at all!!!
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