The Last Gathering

Alright this titles sounds SO funeral (funereal?) but no matter, it's just a title.

I'm really beyond redemption. So annoyed with myself. It's like FEAR doesn't work for me or perhaps I really don't don't don't friggin care and am just pretending to be scared. (???)
2 weeks to school reopen! Must study. . .
*Never*
1 week to school reopen! Must really study le!
*Never*
5 days to school reopen! Dead! Must study!
*Never*
3 days to school reopen! Must really really study otherwise die :(
*Tmr go kbox hunao first la*
2 days to school reopen. . .*mumbles* study?
*Never*
1 day to school reopen. I MUST STUDY!
*Cousins coming. Aiya hunao again lah.
0 days
*oh NO?*

Yup yesterday cousins came over. Yan, Eling and Ting. Then hunao till past midnight. *sobs* Talked about alot of stuff that we never ever mentioned before. Why suddenly say all these? All Yan's fault! Suddenly talk about Centrepoint guy then with Eling, like very troubled like that. Said Ting and I don't understand. Ting because 13 years old, don't understand. Then me leh? Too stupid le perhaps. After that Ting kept bugging Eling about tow ni zui. 13 year old say this kind of things ah? *Feels old* Last time when we were 13, still very nerdy and stupid hor. Where got contacts? Glasses then it's that kind ugly de. Then weird hair cut somemore *Eling says mushroom head for her* Now 13 year olds are so hip la! Look at Ting>>>>

After that discussing alot of blah things. Then Yan demo on Eling and me while I do on Ting but we all say," Don't feel anything leh." But Yan said," Girls of course don't feel anything unless got lesbian tendencies." LOL. After that talked about other stuff that normally, only discussed with friends. I dunno why but among us cousins, we NEVER EVER talk about guys leh. NEVER. Yan was saying maybe must turn les le then we all (except Ting) volunteered to les with each other. HAHA. Fake serious then quite...ahem somemore. After that,they were saying fit guys damn hot, don't like skinny skinny de. Then Yan said," that means centrepoint guy cannot make it le. Very skinny! Stick leh! " Then she was saying broad shoulders then better. HAHA. I then told them what min and me did last time, all the observation thingies. Then ,"aiya, almost like no shoulders de, don't see liao." Yan then asked if __ had broad shoulders then I say don't have even though she said have. I told them the other one had then they don't believe. Haha cuz maybe look unfit lah.